I was not sure if I would be able to post anything this week...my family has had a terrible week, and I am still under a black cloud of mammoth proportions. I won't go into all the gory details, but suffice to say due to poor decisions made by our youngest son, a hole has been torn in our family that may never be able to be mended. I've been walking around in a fog all week....crying and wailing and wondering where we went wrong in his upbringing. Now that I am literally cried out, I know it's not what we did, or didn't do. Once our children reach adulthood, they make their own choices & decisions, and we have to hope that we have given them a strong foundation, and the wisdom to make the right choices. In many cases, despite our guidance and stability, they still make the wrong decisions. The ones made by our son will affect us for many years to come. In the meantime, I cannot, will not allow his mistakes to put me under. I know I am strong and I have to continue to figure out how to be stronger. We have all gone through difficult times, and we have asked others for their prayers & support...so I'm asking for that now for my family. We need all the strength and help that we can receive to get us through this terrible situation. On a somewhat lighter note, I found this lemonade sign at a yard sale on Friday. The family having the sale had lost their wonderful country home to foreclosure. So I bought several things, and probably paid too much, but my heart was breaking for this lovely family. It reminded me of all the blessings in my life that I am so grateful for, and also was a stark reminder that just when you think life can't be any worse, you find some one who is suffering even more. So, this morning I hung my lemonade sign on my porch, and painted the "Lemons?" sign to add to it. This will be my mantra for now & in the future...as I try to pull my family back together, with a smile on my face...not tears... during this crisis. *elaine*
