Thursday, January 17, 2008

My heart has been broken...


On January 7th, we had to make the decision to put to sleep our sweet lovin' yellow Lab, Buck. He had been ill for over a year and we kept hoping for the miracle that never came. Every morning when I would feed him, I would tell him it was okay to let go...but he just kept hanging on, and that Sunday before the 7th, he could barely stand...and my husband found a sweet lovin' vet that agreed to come to our home and help us say goodbye...and now my keyboard's getting all wet, and I thought I'd waited long enough to write about this w/o tears. Guess I was wrong , folks. The Doc my husband found was one of the most compassionate women I've ever met...she has no office, all her work is done mobile...& she spent a huge amount of time with us & Buck...never made me feel like she was in a rush to get on w/ the next thing on her list...very unusual in this day of "rush..get it done...rush..rush...move on". If my heart ever stops breaking, she will be my new Doc for whatever "fur-face" finds his/her way into our home and our hearts...not now, & maybe not for a long, long time...but I feel that there will be another unloved & unwanted who will somehow find us, just like my sweet Buck did 13 years ago...and he or she will probably break my heart again...and damn, I feel like the Tin Man...I know I have a heart, cause it just keeps getting broken...I miss you "Buck-L-Butts"..(why do my pets always end up with odd add-ons to their names??)...and I'll miss you always. Hope you made it to the Rainbow Bridge...I'll see you in 30 or 40 years, God willin'....

1 comment:

oliveoyl64 said...

I'm so sad for you at the loss of Buck-L-Butts. Take care.